Monday, June 24, 2013

Shadow

Yoona ran out to the streets. It was late at night, the streets were empty.
So did the chest felt.
Empty and unloved.
She screamed, not going to care if the people at home were sleeping. 
Nothing will return to her, nothing will respond.
"Return him to me," she said, "Please, God!"
She squatted down. She hugged her knees. 
It was cold, even the street lamp can't keep warm. 
This coldness was nothing to her, she was numb.
He left.
Oh, what promises he made.
"I will protect you, Yoona, with all of my life. I swear, I give my whole life to you. I love you, honey. I love you, so, so much."
"Why did you leave me?"
She asked pointlessly. He left her, just like that.
He will never come back. Yoona will never be able to see him driving into their driveway when the children would be cheering for their father's arrival. He left the family.
Yoona leaned on the cold pole and sighed, "I will do anything."
"I swear, my life. I will mend my mistakes. I won't hurt him anymore, I will love him. As much as he loves me and the children, I will. He left because of me, but I don't want my children to be grow up like this, either do I want to go on like this."
Her tears cooled her face. Her cheeks and nose were red. 
She begged him to come, hug her in his warm arms. He would tell her that it was going to be alright, life goes on. He would tell her that he would always be there for her.
He was gone.
No one was going to do things like that for her. 
No one else can hug her like how he did.
No one would tell her that it was alright. Or maybe she wouldn't believe them.
Because Donghae wasn't there for her anymore.
No more.
Yoona stood up and ran down the empty road. 
"What husband are you, Lee Donghae?"
She questioned the river that reflected her sad face.
"What husband would leave his own wife to take care of their children? They are your children, you idiot! They need you, honey. I need.. I need you," she cried again.  

She heard a car honk.
She wished that it was Donghae who was picking her up.
"Hey, sweetie," Tiffany, Donghae's beloved adopted sister, drew down the windows, "It's cold."
Yoona wiped her tears away before getting on the car. Tiffany heard the door shut and drove away from Yoona's memory lane.
"My brother, he-"
"Don't remind me of him. That idiot. The idiot I loved," Yoona looked out of the window, "That idiot who left me without a word. He just left out of the door, like he hadn't had my children or this marriage."
"No, Yoona, sometimes, things are not-"
"He could. He could control it, Tiffany. He shouldn't have left. What am I going to do for my children now? They need me," she paused, "And.." she looked down onto her thighs, "I need him. I do, Fany. I do."
The car stopped as the gates of Yoona's house opened. Before Tiffany could stop Yoona, she left her in the car. Tiffany sighed and got off to chase her sister-in-law. Tiffany came in time before the gates shut on her.
"Hey," she called Yoona politely, "Yoona."
Yoona smiled, "The children would be happy that you came to visit," the door was opened by one of the helpers at home. 
"Children," Yoona called the two who were quarrelling over the remote control, "Aunt Miyoung came to visit you two." They stopped and looked up.
"Where is daddy? We are going to miss the Ellen show," their daughter, Minjung, asked. The other, Seunghun, continued, "And the ninja turtle episode, the last episode, mama,"
Yoona couldn't look into their crystal eyes, just like his. 
The truth was disgusting and sad. 
It was hard to put them to sleep.
Only Donghae could.
The younger two couldn't sleep, because daddy wasn't there to tell them stories, watch television cartoons or tuck them into bed. Seunghun stoned as he watched Minjung cried her lungs out. Her crying filled the room and the long hallway. Yoona's eyes were watery.
"No, mama! I want daddy to come back now! Right now, right now, right now! Daddy! I want daddy!" Look what he has done, making her a spoilt kid. Yoona sniffed, "Minjung ah, daddy.. He.."
"I don't care! I want daddy, mama! I want him to tell me bedtime stories! I want him to tuck me in! Now, now, now!"
"Minjung, daddy is gone-"
"No," Seunghun finally spoke, "No. He isn't. No. He never will. He will.. He will be back when I open my eyes tomorrow. He will watch me at my first singing performance at school. He will. He promised," Seunghun tucked himself in. Yoona knew that her strong little boy was crying at his sheets. Minjung stopped crying and did the same. Yoona cried harder after she left the room. 
"Yoona," Tiffany hasn't left. Yoona shook her head, "It's okay, Fany. Thank you. Please, I need my time-"
"But, Yoon-"
"He will come back tomorrow. Like what Seunghun said, we will go and watch his performance at school. Donghae will show up, I am very sure. S-so-so sure," Yoona entered her room quickly and shut the door on Tiffany.
"Yoona ah," Tiffany knocked on the door.
"He will come back, Fany. I know that. H-he-he just left for town an-and will be back tomorrow morning," Yoona said before crawling to the top of the bed.
She took her cellphone out, hoping for his missed cal or a message. No, nothing but a wallpaper of their family that was once warm and loved. Until he decided to take a step out of the door.
Yoona unlocked her screen and dial for him.
She wished that he would answer the phone.
Why would he even answer it?
He left.
But as much as Yoona could remember, he was a careless boy. And a careless boy he is. The other phone was on the table beside her. That ringtone. That wallpaper.
The sweet memories only led her out to the bitter reality.
That phone belonged to her man who was gone.
Photos, he had loads of them. Of them, the children, himself.
And another woman.
Yoona threw the phone across the room, making it hit the wall hard.
"Lee Donghae, I hate you."
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So, so, so, how was it? It's an introduction to my new storyline ^^
Inspired by Sam Tsui's Shadow.
Stirred up all of my ideas. (Sam is awesome, okay)
I am going to post more information of this as soon as possible!

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Monday, June 17, 2013

S-Clique

Hey.
Hi.
Hello.
I haven't blogged for a long time now so... Why not now?
So, what is S-Clique?
Actually...
I also don't know. 
OI
NO OKAY
I KNOW
My girlfriends. Yes. Girlfriends. WUT. YOU GOT PROBS OF ME HAVING GURLFRIENDS IS IT?
What does the 'S' in S-Clique stand for?
I know.
Of course. 
I do.
Nah. I don't know.
This time I really don't know-
WAIT. IT MAY MEAN MY NAME. GET IT? SANDY'S CLIQUE, S-CLIQUE. GEEZ I AM A FUDGING GENIUS-

Okay, I should cut my crap and type this post properly.
I decided to type this to my girls so that they know how much they have affected me during my primary school life.
Before primary 6, we weren't that close but we were friends. Back then, I was a super quiet girl. I got bullied because of my eyes and stuffs. I didn't really have a bright primary school life. (it sucked)
I really hated my bullies.
That thai girl with the hairy face.
Michelle with the.... Her face is too ugly to describe.
If I see her on the streets and she tries to say hi, I will be like:

Don't blame me, gurl. You ruin my life. 
You won't say hi?

MOVING ON.
I can say that at the end of Primary 4, my life changed a bit. I had a different class with that. 
That gurl.
She isn't a gurl.
Witch. Yup.
Happy siboooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
I am not sure if Gin remembers but I do (dafuq is wrong with me that i remember everything)
I was sad that I had a different class with my best friend but she came over and said, "SANDY WE SAME CLASS EH" So she made me happy.
Wah, Sandy, liddat also can happy.
YES. It's always those small things in life.
Primary Five was a crazy ride. 
Primary Six was like FUDGING BANANAS AND POTATOES HAPPINESS SHITZ.
I got close to many people whom I actually thought they are wonderful and thoughtful people. 
So, in glory 2, we had splitting of Math class. I got into the one with Gin, Corliss and Fannie in it. 
Then we got really close from then on.
I remember that we used to have fun a lot that the teacher would get pissed off sometimes but we dgaf.

I wanna say to my girls is that, you all changed my life entirely.
Along with some of guys in class, you girls knew how to treat people with love.
Unlike the people that I have been with.
I really haven't met any other girls who would treat me so well.
I am really touched on that morning of my birthday, you guys called just to say happy birthday. No one has ever done that to me, no one has really treated me like I really meant to them so much that if some day I disappear, it would matter to them. I used to hate school but because of you girls, I looked forward to school and math class. We would go crazy together. We chatted and camwhore in the toilet. We would treat the toilet like it is our home. We laughed, rage and cry there some times.
You all really taught me how to be treat others well, give someone a hug when they need it and be there for a person. I never felt that way, even after leaving primary school, I still think of you gurls.
I am sorry that I can't go and be with you girls for chalet. But I am truly thankful for the love and care you girls give. Let's meet up another day.
What I do for myself will die with me, but what you girls have done for me will live on.
Thank you.
Love you girls.
Mua.
Hugs and kisses from Sandy Mui.


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