Being a student isn't as easy as it is these days. My mum said this:
"All you have to do is studying, it is very easy."
Oh, really?
Firstly, if studying was as easy as you think, I would have been the first five in class.
Secondly, I am not a book person.
Mum, see it now?
Why I didn't tell you anything?
Because no one asked or wanted to know me at home. I am not blaming. I know you will be thinking that why I didn't went to you instead. If I always have to be the one who has to move, wouldn't I be tired of living like that? And I always do so, may it be in school or at home. In school, there are a rare number of people who will approach me and talk to me. I always have to go to others and pull my chair to their table and say, "Hi!"
At home, I always have to go to my sisters and talk to them, have fun. My parents? I thought parents would approach their kids first? Because of I am sick and tired of calling "Mummy, mummy, in school today..."
I rarely call on my dad. The way he responds is not what I really want.
"Stupid teenagers."
I know I get angry when they insult my friends but see how he generalises my generation? We are stupid, huh?
Other than insulting my generation, he indirectly discourages me in my singing.
Dad, if you are reading this, read this carefully.
He just tease me a couple of times. I am not scared when I sing in front of him but when he insults, it is irritating. I may be dumb but when I watch shows like America Got Talent, X-Factor and America Idol, parents would be there to support their kids. I don't see how he is supporting me. Because of his behaviour, my sister was angry. She told my dad about her dream of being an idol but she told me that he rejected and refused to let her follow her dreams.
Back to my mum, I cried because of her last night. Not because she scold me or nag at me; I am used to that; it is because she never ask about what happened today or what my dreams were. She just sticks to her bed and want massages from me. I am not a massaging-ish person but she expects a standard. What the?
I bet she doesn't know of all the problems I am facing in school. She will never know until she asks. All she thinks is my besties are not good friends. She doesn't know who my besties are. I just wanna say that Kelly is my best friend who is there for me always, Natalie is a wild girl who can change the atmosphere to a positive one and Joy is a girl who uses her sarcasm to male others laugh. My mum only likes Nadhirah and Jasmine. She judges them by the few actions they made. She was the one who said "Never judge a book by its cover."
All I wanna say is Mum, never judge people when you will never live their lives.
Mum and Dad, I love you two but maybe things are not clicking. I hope you two understand how I feel and now, you wouldn't push that hard on me on my studies. I am sure encouraging would be better, plus I didn't fail any subjects.
The syllables (however you spell that xD) are changing, we are not prepared for it.
My dreams are far away from my studies. Though I know a dipolma is indeed important in this world, I don't really care because as long as I can go for it, I will go for it. I can't be a book worm. I need colours in my life and wild adventures for experiences and stuff like that. I want to be different. That is all I want.
Okthxbye
