I came home today, tired, wanting to rest. But they were watching a movie, it was an old film, horror. I liked that show. It was interesting. I watching for about 15 to 20 minutes. It was hitting to the climax. I wanted to watch badly.
"Sandy, go bathe." My mum called. I told her to hold on, I wanted to watch.
Then came the nags and lectures. Just to watch for a while more, due to my excitement, and I get this? These? The worst part was she brought things about yesterday.
Who did not know that we were going to somewhere? Me.
But who told me about it? No one!
Yesterday, I reached home at 6pm. There was no sign, no one talked about it. So I bathe, imagining what dinner would be for the night. But she scolded me for taking a long time. What thing?
Without me knowing, expect me to move fast. And anyways, I nearly got asthma. I was panting so much. When we came back, I had to pack my bag. I went to sleep at 10:30pm but slept at 11:00pm. Forget all those, the next day, she scolded me for forgetting to wash the tea cups. I was tired.
Why can't you understand, mum?
When you try to, you think you do but you don't! I appreciate it, but when I am trying to say, you keep cutting me off. And when I want to tell you something, you blame me for cutting you.
What is wrong with the world??!
Mum, if you are reading this because someone showed it to you, I want to let you know that I am like hating on you, I want to vent my anger on the internet because everyone else is innocent. And I hope you understand.
I am going through a lot of things. This year, streaming year. I have to work hard on my studies. Recently, I was added to fun fitt, meaning I am slightly overweight; I have to take care of my health. In class, since it is small, the same old people including me have to do up a lot of stuff. For the past few weeks, I had a friend with problems, I have to be with her, there for her. Recently, because of the problems, she can't take care of herself. I am worried. At home, I have chores, family members and stuff to care of.
I know, if I can't handle it, talk to a teacher especially about my friend's problem. I would have done long ago but I know how my friend will be embarrass. I will stand by her, help her, okay? I want to. I have to.
Things run between us, only us. I keep her secrets, she keeps mine. No betrayal.
How I wish I can cry. I have all these to juggle. But everyone and this world is getting more demanding. Problems appear, it takes two hands to clap. But it seems, everything is my fault, I am the cause. And no one understands. Only when I open my mouth, they will. If I shut up, no one would even ask. How much it hurts. Now, I wonder, "Has anyone really, really cared or appreciated my presence?"
I am tired. Now, I can't see that 2012 is a better year.
Though I know God knows what I am going through, but I still don't understand. What have I done to get all this? I really don't know.
Just forget it. Whatever. Aish.
Anyways, I feel better now. I will be happier in the tomorrow. No worries. Okay. Whatever.
God bless, Jesus love you.
Wait. By the way, go check out SHINee's MV.
Okay.
Okthxbye
