This weekend, I found out many things. There were good and bad.
I found out that the things I have overthinking about were all wrong.
I found out as long as you remain as yourself, everyone will love you.
I found out real friends sometimes can't give you an answer of a question about 'what if something bad happens' because a real friend will never want something bad to happen to you.
I found out that relationship, no matter boy and girl, friendship, it all needs time to tie it tighter.
I found out that no matter when or where, there is always that one person who will be there for you.
I found out that people grow up, not change.
Life is like a mirror, if you smile at it, it will smile too.
So why do others think life is a horrible thing? Why?
All I want to say is that life can be a good thing. No matter what the reality is.
I know this society is materialistic. You must have the looks, the education and the position to be out there. People like me, who have weird features, will be hardly accepted at the start. That is what makes us horrible. This is also why I want an eye opt.
Friends around may think, "What the heck is wrong with Sandy? Why does she always want to do an eye opt?"
My classmates, none of them have this problem. They probably not understand.
I know, we cannot make everyone love us. In an election, no one gets all the votes.
I just got tired.
Why?
Firstly, it was all because of me. It takes a long time to know me well. I only trust those who care kindly. I have a lot of secrets fyi. You can have them but get my trust first. It is just that some people just step into my life and think they know me that well. They think I will just spill all my thoughts and secrets for them.
The only ones were my girls. I trust them. Actually, my class girls. They all have my trust.
The reasons why I can;t always laugh and play with them is because of my second reason.
Secondly, restrictions. Because others think I am some good girl or mama's girl. They never invite me. Okay, they did. But I hardly could attend. I miss so many chances to know them. And now it is going to be the end of the year. What is the use of me putting effort now?
Sigh. I mean, at least if you invite me, tell me, I will feel that you care. Because of no one asking me, telling me, I over think. Honestly, I thought I was a transparent.. something. I thought no one cared. I thought..
That only rich, good looking and people who can get along with others easily were the ones who could be 'popular'. There was also a time when I pitied myself.
By then I found out, if I self pity, no one will love me. If I don't love myself, how can I expect others to love me.
On Monday, I will be a different me. I will not pity myself. I will love myself. Laugh more, smile more. Be the most positive. Be that one who wouldn't mind to give out free hugs. Be that one who has the biggest ears and the widest chest, to let others share their problems and have a shoulder to lay their head on.
So was the weekend awesome or not?
Okthxbye
