It is not about my parents.
It is the inner conflicts of my mother towards my neighbour and the body language of my neighbour.
Anyone remember Yeechen? The baby boy that I posted on mothers' day? It's their family.
They have a loving father who works hard to support his own family.
A mother who is a great one and brings her two children up at the same time, no matter how difficult it is.
A young daughter, Yee teng, who is sweet and a loving sister to Yeechen, who is another adorable one.
Let me explain what happened before it gets complicated.
Our families are close neighbours. We used to eat breakfast together. Things started to change when it was about a one-day class, it was not really a religious type of class. This accepts anyone of any race of religion to join. And it is more on character-development instead of a religious class. It only monthly, on a sunday. It is not like school, it is okay if you miss out one - three times.
Back to where we were, at the start of Yeeteng's journey to be a well-developed child with awesome character, we always have to bring her there and back home. Her mother has another child to look after, I understand that. I was supportive on Yeeteng to attend this class. But soon, my mother gave up. My mother said that she wanted Yeeteng's mum to take responsibility. I started to let go but I can't. Yeeteng once told me that she really really really wanted to attend the class. It was just that her mother did not allow her. Her mother said Yeeteng had a lot of tests. So I let it go and accept those few excuses. Then it became worse and worse. Even her father said no. He said she had to learn her spelling and stuffs like that. My mother also got fed up about it.
Today, before CCA started, I received a call from Yeeteng's teacher of the one day class. She really very concern about Yeeteng's attendance. She said she also communicated with Yeeteng's mother about it. She said it was just that her mother thought it would be troublesome for us to bring her there and back again. So I promised that I will inform Yeeteng's mother that I am fine with it, nothing is troublesome.
When I got home, I talked to my mother about that. That talk made me want to type this blog post.
Why? Mum, why do you have to think it that way?
Like what my co-form teacher said, he said that as people get older, we can't brainstorm on ideas because we have too many to consider. If we were to ask younger children, there would be a thousand suggestions from them.
It is because as older we grow, the more things become more complicated to us? Then I want to be a teen for all my life. I mean, this is how my mother thinks, she thinks that Yeeteng;s parents are very responsible because when there was one time when we chose to bring Yeeteng to that class, they took their son out. I am like totally disagreeing with my mum. I think just think in a positive way. Maybe they thought it was a good chance to take Yeechen out so that they can give him some attention with Yeeteng who also need the same amount attention. There are just so many possibilities to that.
Why can't adults think positive? "No, because..." "How? You tell me? This... That... How?"
That is why we think positive! It is make us better and give us hope. But you keep going back to the same thing, the negative shit problems. We think positive, so that we don't keep thinking of those shit and tend to over-think. Over-thinking makes all this even worse.
You all tell us that we should not be selfish, we must think for others? Oh. Then where is the example that I can look up to and follow? You tell us not be the things that are bad but yet many of you are like that. We must think of others? Then why do some of us be so direct or give very obvious and negative body language to show dislike or hate? You adults are doing that. Then we, kids, learn from you all and as the future is on its way, we show all this to our children. This goes on generations. I know I am thinking wild, but this is serious.
Let me ask. Which baby was born into this world with a smirk on their face or knew how to be evil? The reasons why they become evil is because of the sight of adults or the older ones doing it. Has any child said, "I want a lot of money and rule the entire world with power" or "I want more land to build houses and buildings so I create forest fires to wipe out forests." ? These are what you adults are doing.
Stop being a hypocrite. Or try denying. I can see that all happening in my eyes.
I remember a quote from KarateKid, "世界上没有坏学生，只有坏老师" which means that there is no such thing as bad students, only bad teachers exist.
Who are the adults? The kids?
It's the adults.
Okay. I know there are also many good adults but I am sorry, innocent ones, the bad examples have blind me from all you good ones.
All I want to say is, why can't we be as simple as the innocent kids in preschool?
Do things need to be that complicated? Must it be?
Why as soon as we grow older, we have more to think of?
That is all I am saying.
No one will stop me, only until I see no more hope.
GetOuttaMahFace
